I get it, its hard to make a living. You're working harder for less. Yeah yeah. However, If there is an agreement where someone is to be paid for work performed and they are not, that is wrong. More than the money and time lost, I am more disappointed than anything from the lack of character and professionalism. I will not get bent out of shape and get lost in those feelings. I will let this go so that I don't become angry and let this consume me. I will take the higher road and continue on with my career. They can have their money seeded from lies and deceit. In the end, I will thrive and they will continue to be what they always were, a fraud.

good things come to those who work their asses off. not rip other people off.

 If our friends ask me why we don't work together anymore, you bet your sweet ass I will tell them the truth and what secrets you keep from your wife.

Who says that?!

I do!

My friends and I say inappropriate things all the time and we get a kick out of it.

7.23.12

Character

What you say about others, reveals something about yourself. Specifically, when you speak negatively about someone, not only does it ruin their reputation but ruins your credibility. When you speak negatively about someone, it is usually done for personal gain. Maybe that helps you stand a little bit taller. Maybe by ruining their reputation, you feel less threatened by the other person. Maybe the other person knows your dirty secrets.

Experience things for yourself. Don't make up your mind by something someone else said. Question everything.

If that person did that to them, who's to say they won't do that to me?

Happy Sinko de Mayo!

I was upset with my mother this past week. She made me feel little for being upset and crying. She wasn't acknowledging that her daughter was upset but telling me that I shouldn't be bothered by something so trivial. "Why are you crying over that?! Stop crying." she said. I tried to sleep it off and give myself some time to shake it off. The next morning, I still felt she was being insensitive and called her up. I let her have it, telling her that I had turned to her for comfort and not for her to "fix" my problems. That I felt that she belittled me and made me feel like less of a person. I asked her, "When you call me crying, do I tell you how stupid you are? Do I make you feel worse? I listen to you when you cry, why cant you?". At this point, I believe I was livid. I explained to her that with me, crying is a process to a resolution.

Why is crying seen as being weak? Its natural. Out of all the species, humans are the only ones to cry. She asks why I am such an emotional adult and comments that I wasn't like this as a child. I told her that her method didn't work for me and that I choose to be honest w. my feelings and myself.

comfort zone

If you're comfortable, you're not growing.

With that said, this years mantra was to step out of my comfort zone. So far, I have learned so much in the first three months. I've taken a html +css class. I found myself to be more tolerant of certain types of people(not by much). I have also found a new avenue where I can take my creative and design aesthetics. These small experiences has definitely humbled me and broadened my perspective. Its painful and hard as hell but I shall continue what I started. 

Dear Lee sisters:

 my heart goes out to you and your family. she sure was a fighter and will be missed. <3

I need some haters

During my lifetime, I learned that people get inspired through pain and haters.

In the words of Katt Williams, "If you've got haters then you're doing something right".

So, by all means, bring on the hate!

loss

Today, we lost a legend.