Thursday, June 13, 2013

I miss you

When you died, I was completely devastated. All I wanted was to see you and spend one more moment with you and last night you gave me that. You were happy as ever. You were full of life; bouncing and running about, doing your Jack Terrier grunt/growls. No signs of cancer and far from how you spent your last days. As I was scratching your belling, I remember thinking to myself "how have I miss you so" and felt such a loss. I don't know where you go when you die but I hope you're happy and healthy now. I miss you so much, it hurts.


I took this picture the morning she passed away. Had I had known it was going to be my last, I would have taken a thousand more. She turned her weak body around to watch me get ready for work. She only stares at me when she hasn't seen me all day, as her way of saying "I miss you". But that morning, she was telling me she was going to miss me. She knew. Her appointment was made for 6:40 but she passed on her own at 3:40.

Now I know why my mom never allowed us to have pets as children. The loss of a friend is so painful. But I wouldn't have it any other way.

Jin Roe
7/1/01 - 3/21/13