Saturday, May 5, 2012

Happy Sinko de Mayo!



I was upset with my mother this past week. She made me feel little for being upset and crying. She wasn't acknowledging that her daughter was upset but telling me that I shouldn't be bothered by something so trivial. "Why are you crying over that?! Stop crying." she said. I tried to sleep it off and give myself some time to shake it off. The next morning, I still felt she was being insensitive and called her up. I let her have it, telling her that I had turned to her for comfort and not for her to "fix" my problems. That I felt that she belittled me and made me feel like less of a person. I asked her, "When you call me crying, do I tell you how stupid you are? Do I make you feel worse? I listen to you when you cry, why cant you?". At this point, I believe I was livid. I explained to her that with me, crying is a process to a resolution.

Why is crying seen as being weak? Its natural. Out of all the species, humans are the only ones to cry. She asks why I am such an emotional adult and comments that I wasn't like this as a child. I told her that her method didn't work for me and that I choose to be honest w. my feelings and myself.